As I said in my previous post, this is my third year for NaBloPoMo, but my first year doing so publicly. The past 2 years I’ve done NaBloPoMo on my private blog that only a handful of people know about.
I’ve been asked why I have an anonymous blog, especially now that I have this blog. Truth be told, sometimes I just need a safe place to vent…to get those thoughts that are running rampant in my head out so they are no longer haunting me. To get them out so others can comfort me or tell me I’m silly for thinking that way.
Why not post those things here? I don’t know…for fear of being seen as weak or maybe its because I don’t want to disrupt the thoughts you already have about me. I can say that I struggle with a lot of things…probably some of the same things you struggle with. I have insecurities and doubts. Don’t you?
I’ve said this before, but I’ll say it again, my hope is to be more transparent and honest about things and to use this blog to do so. I still have my anonymous blog and post there every now and then, but I hope to use it less and less as I realize that I’m not alone in my discouragement and doubts.
Don’t get me wrong…life is good right now; really good. I’m excited to use this next month to push myself away from my private blog and to share my thoughts here…whether they are only for me to read or not.
So help me know I’m not alone. Tell me something you wished you could share more openly with others. Be as broad or as specific as you want, just help me know I’m not alone;