Deep Thoughts

“What do you do?”

This is one of the questions we ask most often. I know I’m asked this very question all the time, yet don’t know how to answer it sometimes. Why is this such a difficult question for me to answer? Maybe it’s because I don’t know what I want to do. This is something that causes moments of panic and fear, especially recently.

I’ve had dreams shattered and plans come to an abrupt halt. I think these past experiences keep me from dreaming about what I want to be when I grow up. I’ve learned that even when I dream or plan, I have to live in the moment as I never know what could happen tomorrow.

Hold on…now that I think about it, I do have dreams; just not my own. I enjoy talking with others about what they are working on and encourage them to ‘just do it!’ Heck, I even do what I can to make their dreams become a reality. I don’t know why I can’t find that same UMPH for my own dreaming.

I posted on Twitter the other day, “Sometimes I wonder which is scarier…not knowing what I want from life or figuring it out and then not being able to achieve it/failing.” The responses that came back from the Twitterverse were overwhelming (yes, it’s long, but I want to see all the responses here for future reference!)@khartline4




I still don’t know which I think is scarier, not having a dream to chase or chasing it and not achieving it. I don’t even know where to start in order to try to figure this out, which just frustrates me even more. I’m a planner and to not have a plan for my life terrifies me. I mean, it’s my LIFE, HELLO?!?! I should have some idea as to what I want to do with it, right?

I do know that I want to be in control of my schedule, always do things I enjoy, and be passionate about what I’m doing. There’s so much more on this, but yes, I’m avoiding the issues at hand. I know they’re there…I’m just not ready to face them. 🙂 More about this once I get out of this funk…promise.

In the meantime, maybe I’ll just join the circus…

**Thanks to @ericaogrady for taking me to Trapeze School. Yes, this is really me.

3 thoughts on ““What do you do?””

  1. As I said on Twit…You seem like you are in the same place, but atleast you are taking the time to sit down and put real thought into this. Most people “fall” into a career, and dredge through life. I started the same way; military, college, career; about 3 years ago I woke up and said F-It. I left my comfy cozy $80k Career with Ford and went out on my own.

    Being you own boss has its ups and downs, but there is great statisfaction “owning” your life.

    From your positive efforts in helping others succeed in accomplishing their dreams, maybe you should see that as your calling. Motivating others may be your ticket to success.

    Feel free to e-mail me anytime ( Would love to see where you take this thought process from here.

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